I'll change for the better. :O

A good liar you're!

2010-02-06T06:42:00.000-08:00

You're a liar, bigbig liar! Don't talk to me again, seriously! I don't know why you've become this way. But, of course! You have the right to do so. Damn disappointed in you, i don't know what else i can say! Argh! :@

Few more hours to my birthay! :)

2010-01-30T04:29:00.000-08:00

I'm going 16, few more hours later! :) Hahahahahahahaha! Went to training today, did alot of drills and play match. After the training, TEAM sing a birthday song for me! I was like kind of 'shy shy' luh! Balled for awhile and all went home. I'm going out again, to meet friends. Pingkoon, Happy birthday!!!!!!!!! He went to town and he is coming back to meet me at teckwhye! So sorry, can't accompany you guys to celebrate his birthday! Kaykay, i need to go prepare! Bye, weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :P

:) :(

2010-01-27T06:26:00.000-08:00

waaaaaaaaaaaaasuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuup!!!! :) I'm back, like finally huh.. Alright! Firstly, my school has played 3 matches for the B division and we won 2 lost 1. :O Next monday, against river valley! I'm thinking of ways how to win them. It's either Teckwhye or River valley gonna enter the second round! Of course, i hope Teckwhye enters the second round. We won Chua chu kang, commmonwealth! Yet, we lost to Huayi! :( Argh, friends were there supporting and i disappoint them! I want to win River valley, no matter what! I'm going to bed sooooooon, chatting with anonymous right now! Byeeeeeeeeee :)

Confidence, i need you!!

2010-01-16T11:56:00.000-08:00

Hello, it's been so long since i post! I'm so lazy and tired to update, i just doesn't want my blog to rot so and i need to update my blog! :) I had my first match last wednesday, it's on the 13th jan. My first opponent was Commonwealth, we won them by one point. With my three free throws which i've attempt and one went in the basket! Pathetic eh.. I was so happy that one idiot came and foul me where i got 3 free throws and i was also feeling damn stress because i need to make it at least one basketball so that my school will win! And, i did. 52-51 we won! The team was so happy, i'm glad i didn't disappoint them. Okay, back to personal stuffs! Actually, i don't have the mood to talk about all this. Forget it, i shall leave all this aside! Byebye! :P

Hello peeps! Once again, i'm back! :)

2010-01-09T20:25:00.000-08:00

Hey hey, i'm back! :) Alright, school was quite fun and boring to me. Sorry for not updating my blog, i was so lazy and blahblahblah! Tournament are starting sooooooon! My groupings are, River Valley, Huayi, Pionner, Commonwealth and TeckWhye!!! :) I hope Teckwhye can enter second round this year.. Hahaha! I'm going out later, so nothing much to elaborate! :D:D:D I'll update as soon as possible and when i don't feel lazy! Byebyebye! :)

This is specially for you, i know you're getting your O level result tomorrow! Want to wish you all the best!!! Don't be afraid to get your result, because whatever you do, you MUST have confidence in yourself.. Believe in yourself that you can get good result and you will. I don't know what to say actually, because of some stuffs luh. I'm still waiting for your text! You know what, i'm so afraid that your feelings for me might fade! I don't want this to happen, i cannot text you nor call you! Miss you sososososososososo much, you know.. Sigh, forget it. Because you won't know! :'(

Heyheyhey!

2009-12-20T13:11:00.001-08:00

Err.. I know, my blog is rotting as I'm lazy to update or just even to do a short post! :P I'm so obsessed with the orange ball this few days! :O And i swear, i'm sosososo unlucky today.. Gosh, i was balling at cckcc and we change to lamsoon because my brother and his friends were there. I was wearing a low cut basketball shoe, i was praying that i won't sprain my ankle because i was wearing low cut shoe! However, i did sprain my ankle! :( I was sitting outside and watching my friends play. After they have finish playing, we took 975 to cckcc again to ball! Tee-hee! I was balling with them too! Haaa, although my ankle is pain ttm! After balling, accompany friends to coffee shop and have their dinner! I swear i'm not going to touch the orange ball tomorrow. :D:D:D okay, everyone is sleeping at this time and i'm still awake! I'm going to bed now! And and and, i'll upload some photo kay! (Y)

Someone else..

2009-12-06T00:40:00.000-08:00

I don't know what happened to me and her. Things are changing so fast! And, i get some info from ah-hem.. IT fair, a guy, msn! Argh! Supid.. Hmm, okay. I've been balling everyday and i had my 3on3 yesterday held at bugis. :D won 1 match and lost 1 match. Sadded. And and and, i've been sick for almost 1 week already, this kind of feeling sucks luh. Anyway, i've been thinking of ways to quit smoking! Can someone just give me more advice? I'm alone at home, everybody is not at home. I feel like giving her a call, but i'm afraid she's busy.. So, forget it! Wait for her to call me. Haaa! Alright luh, i got to go already. My eyes are so painful. Byebyeeeee!!!!!! :D:D:D

I feel lazy; im always lazy

2009-11-30T22:02:00.000-08:00

Im bored, im lazy.
I UPDATED, DONT SAY I DIDN.
Just that life's all about balling this few days, i dont know how much to elaborate on it.
I spend days with the orange ball.
Adios peeps, till then.
We'll see...

Girl, accept my apology?! :O

2009-11-23T11:40:00.000-08:00

My blog is rotting! Haaaa! I haven't been posting for sooooooo long already. :D i'm just so tired and lazy to update! Ohyahhhhhh! By the way, i really want to apologize to her. Sorry!!!!!!! I get to know that this has happened a few times to you. Hmm, but i was still kept in the dark until today i get to know everything. :(:(:( actually, what your mom say is truth, i smoke and do many bad things. What your mom did was also not wrong luh. Hmm, I don't know how to face you next time and i don't know how to face some of your friends too! Sigh.. I'll see how, my mind is still confuse! Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Abit disappointed, but happy, still! :)

2009-11-17T06:06:00.000-08:00

We won again! 70-33! :D hahahahaha! Sorry for not updating for the past few days! I was so tired and busy. Teehee! Even though i'm tired, but i still make an effort to update my blog leh! I'm waiting to receive the photos from my friend! So slow man! Gee.. The basketball photo were taken just now. And, that photo is taken at wisma. :D Done! Bye peeps!

We won!

2009-11-14T02:38:00.000-08:00

Yeeeshhhhhhhhhhhh! We won deyi! 84-04! Next match on tuesday. We must win! :D i'm too tired to go out and i still love her, deeply! Alright, lay to update so much. Wait for my next post then! Byebye~

I'm sorry, team!

2009-11-09T11:45:00.000-08:00

So sorry team, i couldn't perform today! Sigh* :'( lost to whye nam today!

Yesyes! I'm scare! :)

2009-11-08T00:54:00.000-08:00

Helloooo peepos! :D hmm, just too lazy to update my blog ah! Okay, talk about my milo cup competition.
Venue: Singapore Basketball Center (SBC)
Game 1- Whye Nam White (9/11/09) 3pm
Game 2- Hwa Chong (11/11/09) 4pm
Game 3- De Yi (13/11/09) 1.45pm
Game 4- Paya Lebar CSC (17/11/09) 4.15pm
Hope to enter second round! :D:D:D that's all. I'm just feeling tired to post. Because, i just wake up not long ago. Heh! Byebye everyone!

Friends?!

2009-11-05T13:05:00.000-08:00

Hello peeps! I'm back. :D i wanted to post last night, i was too tired while watching teevee and i fell asleep on the sofa! Ha, today woke up quite late. Tired! Went to prepare and waited to friend to come my house. And, off to my friend house! Hmm, finish talking to my friend. All went to coffeeshop and eat. Started to rain heavily, called my coach and ask him to fetch me up. On the way to AMK. Inside the car was playing and joking. Very fun. Reached AMK, get scolded by head coach. Darn angry with that dog. :@ reached the court, was trying to make the court dry so that we can have our match. But, it wast raining, still! So, we tried to dry up half court and train our formation. After training the formation, the whole team went to timah and have dinner. Friend's dad was trying to let me drink beer but the head coach say cannot! :( so, i can only drink lime juice. After we had our dinner, coach drive us to other place and slack or whatever lah. :) after slacking, went to the temple behind and find marilyn and friend. Sit and talk about our past and present. Heh! After chatting and smoking. Finally, home sweet home! Alright, i need to sleep. Bye! (76days)

Why must things turn out this way?

2009-11-03T06:12:00.001-08:00

Hellohello! :D today was sleeping soundly and was awake by a call from don't know who lah. I forgot! Prepare and went to cc balling. See somebody that i'm not happy with. Alamak, today saw 2 person i doesn't like! :O Okay, i'm tired can! Post tomorrow or other days. Tomorrow training! Thursday friendly match with tong whye! Abit scare scare leh! :) Alright, got to go. Bye! (74days)

I've really tried my best!

2009-11-02T09:54:00.000-08:00

Ohmygod! The lots for under 15 milo cup is out. Hwa chong, Whye nam, Deyi and Paya lebar Csc! Howhow? Alright. We got no choice! Team, we need to fight till the end. We must enter second round and then fight for top 4! :D Although is quite difficult, but we still have to fight. Haha! Today sleep until 4 plus. Rot at home until 8 plus. Went to keat hong market and meet friends. Wait for friend to come and we went to batok. My friend put tattoo at his back! Very nice, i'm putting too! Wait i got the money to put and i'll put. Heh! :) Tomorrow don't know where to go. Ohyah, she has found a job! Congratulation! Hmm, alright. Nothing much for me. Got to go, Byebye! (73days)

Start over again?

2009-11-01T04:42:00.000-08:00

Hi hi hi! :D i'm tiredddddd and i'm going crazy! I didn't sleep at all. I reach home at 11 plus and went out for friendly at 1 plus. Friend's dad came and fetch me. Thanks dude, :) after friendly match, went to king albert park and have Mac! Woah. Hmm, after eating, went to cc and ball. Now, home sweet home! I'm feeling darn hungry now. But, i really got no appetite at all. Help me, gastric is killing me! :( hurt myself during the friendly match. And, there's training tomorrow in the evening. Alamak! Tomorrow my coach is going to draw lots for our under 15 milo cup. Will you be there to watch me play? Sigh, i'm tired now. Got to go, byebyebyebyebyebyebye!!!! :D:D:D (72days)

Tired still! :O

2009-10-31T03:49:00.000-07:00

30/10/2009
Yesterday went to school and get my report book. I failed my maths by 8marks. :( school was normal yesterday. After school, went home to change and prepare. Meet friends at cc and balling! After balling, went to coffeeshop and slack, talk. :D friend drive me home because he was taking cab. Hmm, home sweet home. Bathe and stuffs. Suddenly feel hungry and went to search for food. House got nothing to eat, so i stay inside my room and use computer. Use until about 10.25pm? Fall asleep and till 1 plus. Replied friend message and went back to sleep again. :D hah! (70days)

31/10/2009
Woke up at about 2 plus. prepare and went home at 3 plus. I'm late for my training. Darn tired, no time to eat also. Reach there. Start my warm up and everything. Run for the formation and 5 on 5 started. Play and play, got scolded by coach. For joking, everyone started to get serious. Finished playing, talk about out attitude and performance! :D haha! Wasn't that great. Tomorrow got friendly in the afternoon. Wish me lucks alright. Still having fever. And, a bad news! I sprained my ankle. :( byebye. going to my friend funeral. (71days)

Another day has pass.

2009-10-29T10:49:00.000-07:00

Hello! :D so fast, tomorrow is the last day of school. Need to go back school and get my result, hmm. Talk about today, wake up at 7.17pm. Darn tired. Wake up, prepare and changed. Went to friend house just now. After friend house, cabbed down to zhenghua for friend cousin funeral! Ohmy, he is 21 years old and just passed away just because bike accident. :( after the funeral, went home straight. While walking home, was feeling kinda hungry. Reach home order mac before having my shower. :) after having my mac, watch tv and blogger. Boring. Going to bed soon, i got school tomorrow! Facebook is driving me crazy. Okay, is late. I got to get some sleep now. Bye! (69days)

I know my mistake.

2009-10-28T13:36:00.001-07:00

I'm not her boyfriend. She got the right to contact other guy, yes. If i really love her i should let her feel happiness and not letting her get hurt. I get what you mean. Love can't be forced. To: (: the way you talk is just like someone i know, but not that close. Hmm, no no! Passerby, don't feel that you are saying harsh words to me. If I'm really wrong, just tell me okay? Alright. Talk about today. It has been so long since i went to school again. Today, finally went back to school. Everything were as per normal. Sleep for at least 2 or lesson. The whether is cooling and i was shivering while sleeping. After school, went home and change. Prepare and went back to school for training. After training, went to cc and ball for awhile. After balling, prepare again and went down to panjang cc for training again. My thigh are pain. Darn freaking pain. During my training, i kept making the same mistake and coach were fed up. Sorry! I really wasn't in the mood to train. After training went to wait for train. While walking home, my tears just drop because i remind of something. Know what's my greatest fear? Walking on a dark lonely road myself. Whenever i walk pass that place, it will reminds me of many things. Didn't went to meet the guys, went home straight. Just to cool myself down. Everything is like changing so fast. Hope she'll get good result for her N's. I will pray hard for her. 5 more minutes to 5am. Got to go, down with slight fever and running nose! Byebye! (68days)

2009-10-27T09:13:00.000-07:00

I really love you, will you give me one chance to prove to you? I still can't give up on you, can't give up at all. I don't know why, you know i love you and yet, you still can contact guy. I really love you. One chance and i'll prove how much i love you. Sigh (67days) Don't do this to me can.

Is this going to continue?

2009-10-26T11:20:00.000-07:00

I don't want to continue this. I hate this kind of feeling. Hmm, i everyday sleep at 6am plus in the morning. I woke at around afternoon. When i close my eyes, i will start to imagine stuffs. I can only drink cough syrup to make myself feel sleepy and i can fall sleep easily. Tournaments are starting soon in 2 weeks time. Sigh, i really don't feel like playing already. The feel is not there, i scare i can't help the team. But, i don't know how to tell my coach because he got high expectations on me. Hmm, currently listening to (hurt so bad) This song is meaningful okay! I hope she is doing well and don't drink too much. It's not good health. (66days)
(Facebook quiz)> Born on 31st
You are a simple and honest person. You don't like too many frills. You have a creative mind. If you channel your talents in the right direction, you can go places. You have a warm and compassionate personality which others like very much. You are easily approachable. You need a lot of time to commit in a relationship. You do not get too possessive
(Facebook quiz)> Born on 27th
You have an attractive and vibrant personality. You are a social animal and like to party. You make new friends very easily. You are known for your good sense of humor. At times, you are very obstinate. You can forgive but you not forget easily. In your love life, you tend to be choosy in your search for the perfect partner.

Why?! :(

2009-10-25T09:29:00.000-07:00

Why must you be like this? I hate this kind of feeling. Tomorrow there's training. I don't know whether i should go or not. Sigh. Everything is like changing so fast. I don't know why, friends are advising me to give up. Some wanted me to wait, people say you're not good and want me to give up. People told me you're good and want me to give you more time. Why must i be the one doing all this? I told you before! You are the red rose, standing tall among the white rose. I've decided, you're the perfect one for me. But, i might not be the perfect one for you. Hmm, Someone told me you contact this guy. And, i know him. Fine, i know i got no right to ask about it. )': I'm speechless. 5more days for me to consider. Once again, i was hurt by you deeply! ): (65days)

我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你!?

I'll be there for you!

2009-10-23T22:35:00.000-07:00

Just got home from after a tough training. Get scolded by the coach for not performing well because my mind got so much stuffs. During training, when we run. I was the first to reach, but today everything seems to be so different. I don't know how to say. Its just so different. I was showing coach attitude and didn't want to play anymore. I was sub out and sit at a corner watching my teammates playing. Everyone can perform so well except me. Tournament are starting soon. If i really can't perform like how yesterday i was. Running up and down when i was really tired and i endure the whole game throughout the 1st quater to the 4th quater. I guess, even if the coach put me in the team. I will also not play. I will let other people take over me, hmm. I did not get a real answer but she did hint me. Sigh. I know what she mean and.. Its over! Wanted to have dinner with my teammates, but i got no appetite so i went home alone. That's all! :'(

After reading your blog, seeing you inside the photo smiling so happily. I'm also happy. I don't know if you really put up a real smile in front of the camera. I reach home at about 6.15am. And, i sleep at 6.50am. I wake up at 1.30pm, seriously, I'm very tired! I got a friendly match yesterday and today i got training. Seriously, not i don't want to care for you. I got very little time only. I still care for you. I got training this few days and i can go back to school already. How much time can i care and accompany you? My outside club tournament is starting in 2 weeks later. Hmm, i can only meet you tomorrow. I hope you'll be free to meet me tomorrow. I don't know how to say some things, better don't say better! Ohyah, i got to apologize to her because i say i doesn't want to meet her already. Okay, i take back what I've said and i want to meet you! :D (64 days of waiting ):

Am i the one?

2009-10-22T10:49:00.000-07:00

I guess I'm not the one you're looking for. Hmm, i guess i doesn't have to meet you tomorrow or other days. Because I'm not the one you're searching for. I'm not giving up, still! Its very difficult for me to forget you. I know you still love him, i never force you to forget him. I will give you time to forget him. I don't care how long it takes. And, i want you to be happy from today onwards. I don't want you to stay inside the dark hole. Set yourself free! You're the who let me know what's called love. You're the one who let me know what's called pain. I understand the feeling you're feeling in the past. Yes, i might have been in love before but i have never felt so strong. One thing you can be sure of, I'll never ask for more then your love. The world may change my whole life thru but nothing gonna change my love for you. How can i move on when I'm still in love with you? I only can blame myself, but that won't ease the pain away. I'll be waiting, patiently. I'll wait right here for you. Life for me is not the same, there's no one to talk to. Hmm, how will i see when your love brought me to light. :/ (63days of waiting)

Ohmy! Tattoo?

2009-10-21T09:28:00.001-07:00

I just put a rose on my hand. I just realise i still got school next year. How am i going to hide it? Hmm, sigh! Actually, learning to let go is a good start already. Keep it up alright. :D I'll be waiting for you, still. So, i'm waiting for another answer. You know, I'm really happy you text me just now. I don't know what else i can say, except a sweet smile on my face. There's always a second chance to everything in life! So, get yourself out of the dark hole and you'll be free. Remember, no more foolish stuffs. Don't hurt yourself by looking down on yourself, don't keep reprimand yourself when you're not in the wrong. Get it? I sound like auntie, but all i want to say is. You're still the one i love the most! :) (62days)

Don't be like this? Will you? :(

2009-10-20T11:28:00.001-07:00

I've got to know about your past before i know you. I know you doesn't want it. I don't want to see you like this. Cheerup can? No one got the right to change you. I got no right to say you also. Don't care about what the passerby say. They're just shit. There's this auntie talking to me now, she told me many things and stuffs. I slowly understand how you feel and there are many difficulties you're facing with. Leave all those unhappy stuffs aside and continue with your life. I know said is easier then done. but, you can try to let go slowly. Once you're out of the dark world, you'll slowly feel that you're no longer that stress like last time already. Hmm, I'm getting a tattoo tomorrow. If you doesn't want me to have tattoo. Text me! I'll be waiting for your text, if you really still care for me. If you don't, then that's nothing much i can talk about already. Sigh! (61days)

>To you: Stop all your nonsense! Your words are not going to pull her down. I believe she won't be beaten down by your words so easily. Try harder if you wanna pull her down.

Are you alright?

2009-10-19T08:58:00.000-07:00

How are you? I text you, you didn't reply. If you're still angry or sad about the tag board, i tell you what, i just closed my blog alright. I don't want to see you like this. My heartache to see you like this. Please! If there is anything I've done wrong, you tell me. There's this auntie told me that, if you're bound to be mine means you're mine, if you're not bound to be my means not mine. But, why you can't give me a chance and see whether we're suitable for each other or not. Why must you think that you'll hurt me. Why must there be so much stuff in your mind? Why must you still of the past when it has already past so long? Why?! :( (60days)

(Knock you down)!

[Keri Hilson:]
Not again
Oh this ain't supposed to happen to me

[Kanye West:]
Keep rockin and keep knockin'
Whether you're Louie Vuittonin' it up, or Reebokin'
You see the hate that they serving on a plater
So what we gon have dessert or disaster?

[Keri Hilson:]
I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in and knocked me on my face
Feels like I'm in a race but I already won first place

I never thought I fall for you as hard as I did (as hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinking about our life, our house and kids (Yeah)
Every morning I look at you and smile
Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down (knocked me down)

[Chorus:]
Sometimes love comes around (love comes around, love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)

[Ne-Yo:]
I never thought I hear myself say
Ya'll gon hate
I think I'm going to kick it with my girl today
I used to be commander-in-chief for my pimp ship flying high
Till I met this pretty little missile, who shot me out the sky

So now I'm crashing don't know how it happened
But I know it feels so damn good
Said if I could go back and make it happen faster
Don't you know i would baby if I could
Miss independent, to the fullest, the load never too much
She helping me pull it, she shot bullet that ended that life
I swear to you the pimp in me just died tonight girl sometimes love

Sometimes love comes around (love comes around, love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
[ Keri Hilson Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)

[Kanye West:]
Tell me now can you make past your caspers
So we could finally fly off into NASA
You was always the cheerleader of my dreams
To seem to only date the head of football teams,
And I was the class clown that always kept you laughing
We were never meant to be, baby we just happened
So please don't mess up the trick,
Hey young world, I'm the new slick rick,
They say I move to quick but we can't let this moment past us,
Let the hour glass pass right into ashes
Let the wind blow the ashes right before my glasses
So I wrote this love letter right before my classes
how could a goddess ask someone that's only average, for advice
O-M-G you listen to that bitch?
Woah is me, baby this is tragic
Cause we had it, we was magic
I was flying, now I'm crashing
This is bad, real bad, Michael Jackson
Now I'm mad, real mad, Joe Jackson
You should leave your boyfriend now, I'ma ask him

[Keri Hilson:]
So you gotta take the good with the bad, the happy and the sad
Or will you bring the better future then I had in the past
Cause I don't want to make the same mistakes i did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again
Woah, woah
I'll admit it, I was scared to answer loves call
Woah, woah
And if it hits, better make it worth the fall

(When it comes around)

Sometimes love comes around (love comes around, love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around (comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)

Won’t see it coming when it happens
But when it happens you’re gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love comes knocks you down

Won’t see it coming when it happens
But when it happens you’re gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love knocks you down

I don't believe you're that kind of person!

2009-10-18T13:28:00.000-07:00

I know you still got read my blog, i want to tell you here. I really never say you did and stuffs. You're not at fault, you are not the one that always being blamed by others. I'm not happy when you're being hated. I don't care about how others feel, i just want you to feel happy. You do have an attitude, but i believe you also doesn't want it. A person can change, a habit can change and attitude also can change. I don't see any wrong if you have attitude. I, myself also got attitude problem. So, does it mean everyone hates me? You can be happy, sad, emo and etc. The most important thing is you are not being controlled by others. You are yourself. You have the rights to do what you want and others got no right to interfere. People might say your imperfect. No one is perfect at all. Everyone got their good and bad points. Its just, how others going to look at it. Frankly speaking, after knowing her for quite long. I don't really understand her, i doesn't know what she want. It's the same, nobody knows what i want. I know you're being betrayed by guys and some stuffs. I keep it mute because i doesn't want to let others say and people talk behind your back. Why do you want me to listen to others? I told you, i believe you. That doesn't help me a lot. It will hurt me more when i saw you writing those to me. I didn't doubt you, at all. I still trust you like how i do. The only thing that hurt me the most is, i still can't forget the way you look at him. This post is specially wrote to you. I just want you to know how i feel and hope you will understand me. I did not choose to give up! (59days)

I never give up before..

2009-10-17T11:13:00.000-07:00

I saw her yesterday and today. We didn't talk at all. I don't know what to say and i got no courage to just look at her. I really never give up on her. I don't bear to let go. I scare i make a wrong decision again. That's why, my friend told me you not good, but i choose to believe myself that it won't goes wrong. I just now went drinking. Only two things can let me don't think about all this stuffs. Drinking and basketball. I really don't know what's she thinking. I want to understand her and stay by her side when she need someone. Today is already (58days) How can i touched her and make her love me? Sigh! I always put on a smile. Do you people know how difficult to put on a fake smile, I doesn't want to say anymore. Let nature takes its course! :'( i 've been crying at home for the past few days at home. (58days)

I don't have a home!

2009-10-16T04:28:00.000-07:00

I really don't know what my parents want. Hmm, i didn't go home, they scold. When i'm home, they won't talk to me and they'll give a irritating face. I really don't know what they want. I have a home as if i doesn't have a home like that. Who have been treating me well in my family? Only one! My elder brother. I got no cash he will give me and he won't hesitate. What about them? Why do you want money? They ask stupid stuff and make me feel irritated. I'm not going home tonight. I can post now is because they not at home. From now onwards, i don't have parents. They are DEAD! :| won't be posting tomorrow. See whether i got go home or not. That's all. Byebyebyebye!! (57days)

I wonder how are you doing outside? You remove your plurk and tagboard. You didn't update your blog. I don't have the courage to ask you anything because.. I don't know why also. This feeling has been with me for the past few days and i hate this kind of feeling. What's more, there's 3 cases coming. I don't know what i should i do and i don't know how to prevent it from happening. If anything really happen to me. You got to take goodcare of yourself. Hmm, bye!

Totally a disgrace.

2009-10-15T22:27:00.000-07:00

(15.09.2009)
I was drinking at 216 coffee shop near keat hong market. And, a lot of people there are friendly. Is not the first time i go down but is the first time i saw all the old uncle there. Therefore, we got to introduce ourselves. After doing stuffs, we started to drink, order food and everything. We went kaiyuan house and stay. I sleep at 2 plus and woke up at 4.44am! When i woke up, i saw raymond scolding some people and doing a cute face. When they wake up, everybody prepare and we went to take cab, i need to go home and changed. Hmm, we went out again to slack and play poker cards and mahjong. We can play it everywhere we like. Midnight, went to my house downstair and play candles. Only got kaiyuan, raymond, jesmond, szekiat and me. After playing all went home to sleep. :D (55days)
(16.09.2009)
I just wake up and post. My head is spinning and i got no strength over my whole body. Going out to ball later. Yes, i can vent my anger on others. I just wanted to let you know, I've been waiting for you 56 days. Frankly speaking, i don't know why i can't give up on you when others keep calling me to give up on you. I've give up once and the decision i made I've regret. I doesn't want to regret again or getting any false hope. Text me when you really have feelings for me. I'll be waiting for your text. If you still care for me too. Hmm, i didn't cherish what i have last time, when she was talking i was like, doing my own things? If another chance is given to me, i make sure I'll treasure it! :\ (56days)

~~I tried to give up, but i find it i cannot because i still love you.~~

I'm not the one you used to know.

2009-10-13T21:45:00.001-07:00

(14.09.2009)
It's repeating the same thing everyday. Sleep very late but wake up very early. I don't know why and i think this is going to be continue again and again. Sigh.. I just got no mood to talk to anyone. Hmm,
(13.09.2009)
I just reach home, just now drink at coffee shop with guys. I was drinking till like hell. Dying soon. Hmm, I'm not sure who you're talking about. But, i can say I'm no longer the one you used to know. I'm no longer the same. I've changed. Changed to become a heartless person. You're the only one that can changed me back. From now, today onwards. If i go out and fight with others, I'll make sure that guy bleeds and say sorry to me. I don't know why, but things seems to be changing and many things happened recently. I'm sorry to jesmond, zhengkai, Raymond, jinzhi and szekiat. I've bring you all to a wrong path. Even though you guys didn't say it out. I still can feel that you all are worried. You all keep telling me. I in, you all follow. But, what if one day things really happened and you all still got your girlfriend? I got no girlfriend. I'm fine with it, though. I got police case before and you guys don't have except for szekiat. Since you all can change why not choose another pathway to go. I'm in, i can no longer out. Cherish what you have now and don't ever regret again. (54days)

(To my closest bro, Jesmond) If lyn really doesn't want you to join, don't join then. I rather you treat her well and cherish what you have right now then losing everything in the end. This is a very difficult pathway for me to go. But, i still have to go. No choice for me to choose already. I'm sorry!

(To Jiahui) I really never blame you at all. I know there are some stuffs you keep thinking about. Sometimes, just let yourself relax and think on the positive side. Always remember, if others didn't look down on you. You CANNOT look down on yourself! Stay strong. I'm putting all these aside because you've already told me in the message. I'll still be waiting and just hope you'll be cheerful everyday. Hope you find someone you love soon. Take care! I'm sorry too..

What's wrong? :(

2009-10-12T22:00:00.000-07:00

I can't sleep. Yes, i sleep. At 5.45am. Woke up at 9am. I hope everything goes well for her. I didn't blame you at all. I need you, you might not need me. So, good luck for finding a guy that loves you. Hmm, don't care about her/him. They got no right to judge you and be yourself. If you feel that what you do is right then is right. :\ from the day i promise you I'll be waiting, i didn't regret and give up at all. I did give up once, but i realise my decision was wrong. And, i din't give up again. Sigh! (53days)

I once ask you, if you got feelings for me. You told me yes, you got! I was so happy at that time.. You once told me you never love me before. My was break into pieces. As i said, i never blame you at all. If you're happy, i am happy for you too.

Hoping of another chance?

2009-10-12T09:35:00.001-07:00

Hello! :D woke up at 4 plus. Text her at 7pm? I was having dinner at 7.30pm and i went out with my brother. When the dish are served out, i was happily smiling to my families. But, i suddenly receive a text from _ _ _ _ _ _ and said it's not okay for us to be more then friends. I can persevere all the way till now is because i love you. How did i made it? I've been finding ways to touched you and show you that i can wait for you and sacrifice my everything. I did my promise to you that i won't make wrong decision again because I've done wrong once. I don't want to repeat my mistake again. And now, I really don't know what to say. It has been 52 days since your exams start. I told you I'll wait and i did. Since, you have already made up your mind. I respect your decision and I'll still continue to wait. Maybe you won't come to my blog again but I'll post everyday and i remember how long I've been waiting. (52days)

Everyone detest me. Everybody is looking down on me. Not only others. Even me, i'm looking down on myself. Sigh! I only can know how she's doing by her blog. I always wanted to ask, but i just don't have the courage. When i ask, i always ask the wrong question. :( I really don't know how to make her happy or rather don't let her feel so stress.

(Tell me where it hurts)

Why is that sad look in your eyes
Why are you crying?
Tell me now, tell me now
Tell me, why you're feelin' this way
I hate to see you so down, oh baby!

Is it your heart
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
Makin' you feel blue
Is there anything that I can do

Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make the tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts
Now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay

Where are all those tears coming from
Why are they falling?
somebody, somebody, somebody leave your heart in the cold
You just need somebody to hold on, baby
(Give me a chance)
To put back all the pieces
Take hold of your heart
Make it just like new
There's so many things that I can do

Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me baby
Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make the tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts
Now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh, and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away
I'll love all of the hurt away

Sorry!

2009-10-11T12:28:00.000-07:00

I know, i got no rights. I should know my limits. And, i know i'm over the line. But, i was just feeling kinda jealous. Hmm, just doing a short post and i'm lazy to upload terence sec1 photo. Next time yea.

Forever??????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Angry! :@ Angry! :@ Angry! :@

2009-10-07T19:03:00.000-07:00

Today wake up as usual. Hmm, go to school as normal. Went my class is going back for exam. OM called us to sit down and said we doesn't know how to walk like a class. We're going for our exam at different venue and he want us to walk in twos'? WTH! He called me up and say my hair is long. He ask one of my classmate to get a scissors and just cut my hair as if he is cutting his own plants. Get darn irritated and go to the washroom and wash up. Get prepare and went to exam room. Get ready for my exam. That's all for today. Going to trim botak later! Bye.

It's your birthday so I know
you want to riiide out,
Even if we only go to myyy house
Sip mo- weezy as we sit upon myyy couch
Feels good, but I know you want to
cryyy out
You say you want passion
I think you found it
Get ready for action
Don't be astounded
We switchin' positions
You feel surrounded
Tell me where you want
your gift, girl
Girl you know I-I-I
Girl you know I-I-I
I've been feenin'
Wake up in the late night...dreamin' about your lovin'
Girl you know I-I-I
Girl you know I-I-I
Don't need candles or cake
just need your body to make good

Birthday sex
Birthday sex

It's the best day of the year, girl

Birthday sex
Birthday sex

It feels like, feels like... lemme hit that...g-spot g-spot
See you sexy and them jeans got me
on 10
1-2-3, think I got you pinned
Don't tap out...fight until the end
Ring that bell; we gon start over again
We grindin' wit passion, cuz it's yo birthday
Been at it for hours...I know you thirsty
You kiss me so sweetly...taste just like Hershey's
Just tell me how you want yo gift, girl
First I'm gonna take a dive into the water deep until I know I pleased
that body (body ah oop)
Or girl without a broom
I might just sweep you off your feet
And make you wanna tell somebody
(body, how I do)
somebody body how i do
Or maybe we can float on top my water bed you close your eyes as i impry between your legs
We work our way from kitchen stoves, and tables
Girl you know I'm more than able to please, yeah
Say you wanted flowers on the bed (on the bed)
But you got me and now it's on again

(it's the best day of the year, girl)
(lemme know what it feels like, feels like, when I hit that G-spot, G-spot)

Holy mama! ):

2009-10-04T21:43:00.001-07:00

School was normal and nothing happened, :D the only thing I'm unhappy about is the second paper I'm having today. I did not complete the whole paper and it was due to LACK OF SLEEP! This exam takes up to 45 marks and i didn't complete it. :( today, while i was doing my first paper. My tears just suddenly drop down and teacher ask me what happened. When i was done with my paper. Teacher ask me out and talk to me. I didn't talk much and just walk away. Like what you said, not everything can be said so easily. Now i understand, sorry for not understanding you at that time. Hmm, my mood wasn't good at all. Tomorrow is my maths paper. Maths is a fear to me. I don't know how to overcome this fear. I'm afraid that i just can't go back to school next year. A lot of thing is troubling me right now. :O nobody can talk to.

哭了　才發現自己真的受傷了
你曾對我說你永遠是我的。
為了愛情我把自己的幸福都忘了
你快樂　我就快樂

也許,是我們彼此都太年輕了
總是特別容易沉溺在愛情裡
每當我再次看到身邊美麗的花火，
你已離開我　我還是想對你說：

baby I love u so much, 你走了我的心在淌血
baby u hurt me so bad,想要你回到我的世界
baby I love u so much, 你給我的諾言已經瓦解
baby u hurt me so bad

只要我們都愛著無論多苦都值得　說好的你怎麼忘記了

You came and you change my whole world!

2009-10-04T07:07:00.000-07:00

I had a hard time doing her name. (: although is raining yesterday night, i was sweating and sneezing while doing those candles. When she see it, what i feel was very happy because she was smiling so happily. I know is not very nice, i don't like art. So, i can't do very well. Hmm,

Tomorrow is her exams and i don't know what to say to her but just wish her good luck. Hmm, I'm just waiting for her exams to be over. I want to give her time, she got a lot of stress! Because of her class and stuffs. I'm stress too. All about her, i don't want her to hurt herself. I just made her unhappy yesterday. I've apologize to her and she didn't reply me. ): I sincerely apologize here! I'm sorry!

Now i see, what love means. It's so unbelievable, that i don't wanna let it go. It's something so beautiful, flowing down like a waterfall. I fell like you've always been, forever a part of me. And, its so unbelievable, to finally be in love, somewhere i thought I'd be. In my heart, in my head it's so clear now. Hold my hand and you got nothing to fear now. I was lost and you've rescued me, somehow I'm alive. I'm in love and you've complete me. When i think of what i have, and this chance i nearly lost and i can't help but breakdown and cry!

Afriad to know the truth!

2009-09-27T18:09:00.000-07:00

Ohmygod! What should i do?!?! I don't know what to do right now. I feel so nervous, anxious and scared! How?! Arghhhhhhhhhh.. If is positive i don't know. But, if is negative i rather i don't know about it. (: Heh!!!

Tired day! ):

2009-09-26T09:37:00.000-07:00

I reached at 12noon. After playing the football manager, i fell asleep. O: Slept until 7 plus. Prepare and went down to timah and pool with friends. (: i text her and she replied. Happy luh! Monday, is either a happy or a sad day for me. Hmm, yes. So what if i'm reaching the finishing line and you haven't? No matter what, i will turn back and walk with you. At your pace, slow or fast is not up to me. I think positively but do you? You know, no matter what answer you give me on monday. I'll respect your decision. But, i won't give up, still. I just hope everything will be the same. |: i won't cross the finishing line unless you've done so. I've think a lot of times, i won't regret it. :D its late. Everyone should be sleeping now. So, goodnights! Bye.. Post real soon alright.

I lose the race.. ):

2009-09-25T03:32:00.000-07:00

I don't know what to say. I just want to have a good chat with her. She changed, alot. Sigh, i hope she won't walk away just like this. Hmm, waiting for her N's to over. So, we can have a good chat. I really hope the answer will be positive. Just, doing a short post. Going for balling later! Bye..

Suspended!

2009-09-16T20:08:00.000-07:00

I went to school as normal. When i reach school, i was happily chatting with my friends. After the morning assembly. OM call for me and my friends. We have poor attendance. I didn't go school for 18 days with no valid reason. And, my four friends got 25, 50, 51 and even 89 days. Now, i don't know how am i going to tell my parents that I'm being suspended until my EOY. Not only my parents. And her.. She had enough of stress. I doesn't want to let her know I'm being suspended and make her worried. O: i just hope she won't be angry after reading this post. I don't mind not going to school. But, i just want my exams to pass. I promise my parents, friends and even my probation officer. I told him..
ME: After my probation i will still continue to study.
Officer: Alright, that's great. When you get good result, you can always come to my office and see me.
ME: No way! I doesn't want to step in MCYS again. (:
Officer: Alright. We'll meet outside some other day.
I really don't know what to do. Seriously, should i just?..

I'm not unhappy..

2009-09-16T08:01:00.000-07:00

Come on, I'm just kinda of jealous luh. Nothing to worry and think about. Just, be happy okay. Don't know whether you're asleep or awake. Call you once and i stop. Afraid that you'll be sleeping. (: i will tell you if i am unhappy about anything okay. Ha ha! No photos to post. Randomly choose some.. :D

Remember not to skip your meals. You were complaining hungry and you still doesn't want to eat! :@

You say i am weird. You say is complicated. You say is difficult to influence another one. You say you will be thinking. You say you are scare. You say is not simple to make it not complicated. You were told to give other people a chance and open your heart to someone else. I heard it. I just pretend i didn't heard it. I just want to let you know, no matter what answer you give. I still won't give up on you.. O:

Waiting patiently..

2009-09-12T06:06:00.000-07:00

Now i know, why people say things shouldn't be rushed. Hmm, so i've decided to stop contacting her because she won't be stress and her life won't be more complicated. Also, her friend won't keep asking her about me. She will be happy. As long as she is happy then i'm happy. I don't know what to say, i just can't let go of her. She's like, the one i love the most. So, i won't give up on her that easily. If she choose to give up on me i got nothing to say. But, i'll still loving her and waiting for her no matter what. Even after her N level she still don't choose me, i'll continue waiting. Because, i know its worth it to do all this. She wants me to continue with my life, and look for other girl. You still have things that can't let go easily. Therefore, i still got someone i can't forget and that person is non other that you. Get it? Believe it or not, the choice is yours. Yes, i didn't put in effort. But, even if i have put in effort. Will you still give me a chance? Yea, you thought of giving me a chance. End up?, you didn't! :'( sigh..

Ohmy! What should i do? ):

2009-09-07T11:52:00.000-07:00

God, please tell me what can i do so she will not cry and think of other stuffs? God, please tell me what can i do so she will keep smiling everyday? Hmm, Just, goodluck for your paper and don't think too much alright. I believe you can do it. Don't care about how others see you and criticize you. I say you're good means you're good! :D Trust me or stranger? Heh! I've been thinking a lot nowadays. I hope you're okay with your paper. I hope you didn't flunk your paper because of me. I will wait until your N level over! Promise are not mend to be broken!!! :):):)

Speechless..

2009-09-06T00:53:00.000-07:00

I don't know what to say. I'm speechless, nothing to say. ): you feel unsafe, tears are fill in your eyes. I really don't know what to do. You say you doesn't want to hurt me. But, Have you ever think on the positive side before? I really don't know what can i do so you will not feel this way. I asked you, is there anything making you feel unhappy? You told me you're fine and ask me not to worry. How can i not worry about you? You're the person i love. How can you ask someone that love you not to worry, if i say i will not worry about you but does that mean i can really don't worry about you? I've been finding an answer. Am i fit to be with you, am i fit to takecare of you, am i fit to be your everything? I haven't found the answer. Hmm, i thought of meeting you and give you a hug. Because, i think you'll feel better if someone is beside you. But.. I'm jealous, while writing this post. My tears drop down, this is my first time doing posting and my tears drop. I will still pretend nothing had happened before. I will continue to treat you good and everything. I will try my best to protect you, even if i have to sacrifice my life. I'm willing to do it. I want you to be safe&sound. That's all. Now, i don't mind you're with me or not.. As long as i can see you smile happily, i'm happy too. All my fault. I was the one who causes out so many unhappy things. )': I hope everything goes well too! :|

2009-09-02T07:34:00.000-07:00

Hello. The photo of me is i inside class. I'm bored. And the other photo is me and Ah-Hem. She adorable! I love her!!! :D today i meet up with her. I'm happy!

I don't want to feel this way.

2009-08-30T06:50:00.002-07:00

I've been doing my part and i try not to give her so much pressure. But, somehow she's kinda avoiding me and i don't know why. I feel so useless and helpless when i saw her yesterday. She was drunk and she vomitted. I wanted to comfort her but i don't have the courage to tell her or even just look at her. I hate this kind of feeling. I just hope she is not avoiding me. That's all. I don't want to give her stress. I tried not to let her feel so stress, but she seems to be having a lot of problem, i don't know what's her problem and she seldom tell me about what and how she feel. That's why i feel so helpless and useless. Hmm, bye.. :O

I feel so despondent.

2009-08-26T05:10:00.001-07:00

Hmm, i was chatting with her happily. Suddenly she became so quiet and i don't know what to say. I could only ask her to continue watching her television and nothing else. Sigh, i tried my best in everything i can do. But, afterall i still failed to make her feel touched and stuffs.. I don't know what to do anymore, just. I hope everything will be back to normal, real soon. After i've known her for quite long, actually she's fine, caring. But, hmm. I won't give up, still trying my very best to hold on. I won't let it fall so easily. :O

I feel so left out.

2009-08-22T10:06:00.000-07:00

Hello, sorry for not posting so long. :) was due to laziness and tired. Ha! Hmm, let's talk about yesterday, went to school as normal and lesson was fine. Get backed my 3 papers and i passed all 3. I thought i will flunk my maths but i didn't. :D i pass by half marks okay! Maths 20.5/40 English 32/50 Chinese 36/50 :) after school went home changed and back to school again for training. After training, went to ATM and withdraw money. Went home straight to prepare and wait for SzeKiat for balling. Limbang park to ball and reach home at 12am.
Today woke up at 2 plus to prepare and go for training. I went down just to watch and is so boring sitting there like a retarded to watch my teammates play. I really don't feel like staying at Prestige anymore because i feel that i can't communicate with them and i was the one whom causes them doing things repeatedly. I guess i need a break, many things are happening this few days. As for her, i don't know what to say. I'm still waiting for her to tell me how she feels about me. I think she don't love me. Because, her attitude and everything has change towards me. :( i really don't know what to do, sigh. I'll take one step at a time. Got to go. Byebye! I hope everything will change for the better. :O

Hello! Sprained my ankle.

2009-08-19T04:58:00.000-07:00

Hi, Finally i'm back. I know my blog has been rot for a long time already. (: Yesterday play basketball with my friend and i sprained my ankle. Just now, went back to school for training. I sprained my ankle again. I was so unlucky. Hmm, okay. School was normal but i guess i've flunk my maths test. I got not enough time to complete the paper and the last page has total of 10 marks! Sadded! Hope i can pass all the subject this time round. :0 Hmm, i got to go.

So, i got something to share with her. ((: Is alright to failed one or two times. Don't because you have failed and you give up everything. Don't lost your confidence too. :D Nobody has ever given up on you. So, don't give up yourself. Stop giving yourself so much pressure. You still have to move on with your life. HA! I'm saying all this because not i want you to accept me, is because i want you to know there are many people outside still caring for you. Hmm, you should know who lah! (: and, if you're really being thrown up high in the sky.. I tell you, i'll be the first guy to stand down there to catch you. I won't let you hurt yourself and let others hurt you. This is a promise i made to you. So, you must trust me! :D that's all. Hope everything goes well for me and you! Hee..

Terrible running nose!

2009-08-04T07:03:00.000-07:00

Okay, school was fine as usual. Got scolded by OM this morning because i went home yesterday with an eye sore. (: I thought i will feel better today but, worse! Having a terrible cough, flu and headache! I hate this kind of feeling. I just had my dinner as well as my medicine. After school went to block 6 and meet cliques. Chit-chatted awhile and home sweet home. Was watching the television and i fell asleep while watching the television. ((: Woke up at 9 plus and bathe. After bathing, like i said, had my dinner and blahblahblah... Heh! Alright, just doing a short post. Just doesn't want my blog to rot. Haha, okay. I'm going.. Ta-ta!

You're so DESPICABLE!!!

2009-07-27T19:56:00.000-07:00

You doesn't have to explain to me. there is nothing for us to talk much! I'm not gonna talk to you again because i've lost trust in you. You said to jiajun: I'll have a girlfriend soon. Since you want her, then i will let her decide who she wants to be with. :O i don't mind losing a friend like you because you're just so despicable. I gave you my trust and i thought you won't betray me. But, in the end i was wrong about you. There's nothing for me to say anymore. Sigh. )):

Step back? :0

2009-07-23T00:51:00.000-07:00

I don't know whether you'll be reading this or not. But, i'll choose to step back after hearing what friends has told me. :( i did not show you any concern but just giving you more pressure. I'm sorry! Maybe you will be better with those two guys. :0

Hello! Back in action. (:

2009-07-10T22:00:00.000-07:00

Hello!! I am lazy to post because i'm tired. School was still the same and i'm having training later. Boring.. :O Actually, i got nothing much to post because it was due to my laziness and tired. Did not attend school yesterday. Early in the morning went to my coach house and play PS3 and we played until 12 plus, Coach prepare and we went to Zhijie and wait for him to prepare because he is going to chalet. After waiting for Zhijie, we went to meet Yongxin and Jiajun. Went to lot one together and slack, They accompany me home and i bath. we went to 145 to have our dinner and we headed to Yewtee cc to watch match. after watching the match, we came back to teckwhye and there is alot of problem. When they are done with their conversation, I went home to have my medicine and i fall asleep while waiting for someone message. Sorry for not replying you because i fall asleep already. ): Hee!

Is not a crush! I'm serious about you. :) Just trust me okay.

):

2009-07-02T21:08:00.000-07:00

I'm sick for 3 days, i did not attend school for 2 days. Long time didn't post already and i'm balling later. so, i'm not doing a long post. :D i just do a quiz on facebook that says,

What Your Birth Month Says About You and the results u get is
* Ambitious and serious
* Loves to teach and be taught
* Always looking at people´s flaws and weaknesses
* Likes to criticize
* Hardworking and productive
* Smart, neat and organized
* Sensitive and has deep thoughts
* Knows how to make others happy
* Quiet unless excited or tensed
* Rather reserved
* Highly attentive
* Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
* Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
* Loves children
* Homely person
* Loyal
* Needs to improve social abilities
* Easily jealous
Ha! I don't believe! (: Alright , got to go. Byebyeeeee! (:

Sorry, I didn't meant to hurt you, ):

2009-06-22T09:36:00.000-07:00

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I didn't mean to say that. I regret already. I won't ask for your forgiveness, i know i was wrong to say those words but.. I'll be waiting for you to say we are still friends. Go ahead and choose him. I won't hold you back because if is mine it will come back to my side, Sincerely sorry! )':

NeoYingXue, SORRY!

2009-06-21T09:24:00.000-07:00

Help PYS to post,because he's too busy that causes him no time to post.He's doing trainings everyday ok? Must pity him,Joking. :x Ok,I'm doing a long message below on his behalf. :)

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Hahaha,ok,this is very interesting & 无聊,I know.Do tag him more,because his tagboard going to be dead very very very soon. :)Byebyebye !

Posted by:无名人,someone that is not important. :x

2009-06-12T00:27:00.004-07:00

Hello, I'm back! Sorry for not posting due to training was a bit tough. :D after our training at sentosa, we went to celebrate our teammate birthday. haha! he face got a lot of cake and he make us back. (:(:(: after celebrating we slack awhile and went to kampong ubi to watch basketball match. Hmm, that was quite long ago and i still remember. Miracle!! hehe! post until here, i'm going out soon. Ta-ta. (:

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2009-06-09T10:58:00.000-07:00

Hellohellohello! :) I'm here to apologised on Yisheng's behalf as he do not have the time to post.He's busying with his basketball trainings lately,ha. :]Do tag him more as his blog is getting dead soon. :]Thankyou & byebyebye !

Rowell. :]

I choose to give up.

2009-06-02T10:51:00.001-07:00

Hello. :D today had our prestige training at woodland stadium. we had to run the stadium 15 rounds with the timing of 30 mins. very tiring. when i completed 7 rounds, my coach doesn't want me to run anymore because due to my knee, i injured my knee this after while playing basketball at cc. :O after they have finish the 15 rounds, they had to sprint 15 meters. not one time only, is FIVE times. the time time they run, i was sitting there watching, the second time i ask my coach can i run with them and my coach nod his head.Hah ! i run for 5 sets too and i get first for all five sets. i doesn't have to do push-up because i get first. my teammates blame me for running. :) after our training, we went to coffee shop to have our dinner.hmm, after dinner slack awhile and home sweet home. :D i need to stop here. tomorrow going to west spring sec for training. BYEEEEE!

:0 Sick and tired of everything.

2009-05-30T08:56:00.000-07:00

Hello, i'm back! :O hmm, has been training hard for the past few days and the training was seriously tough. i want to have basketball training because i wanted to forget everything she has said and done to me. i don't know you like other guys or not, but why i message you, you just won't reply me. sigh! i'm sad because you did all this to me. please, if you really like other guys and not me, just tell me. i feel that i'm a toy to you, i can make you laugh when you're bored, i am someone that can let you vent your anger on me, i am that kind that can tolerate everything. but i just can't tolerate you with others guy chatting so happily. :( Going to 3on3 match tomorrow. bye! i hope tomorrow will be a better day for me. :)
You promise me that i'll have a chance but in the end its just pie in the sky. i admit, maybe i'm not good enough for you. but you doesn't have to do this to me. :'(

I'm tired.

2009-05-25T07:22:00.000-07:00

I did not went to school today because I'm tired and i don't want to get check by my teacher because of my hair. :0 went to panjang cc to watch under 17 play friendly match with Qian xi, hmm, after watching then we played basketball for awhile. before that i was at cc, actually don't feel like playing then they not enough people then i play. i and jurrel had to do 5 push-up because we let our oppenent score. ha-ha. :) after playing went to sze kiat house to bath, after bathing went down again. when yingqi is going home, i talk to her and she keep saying she don't know. -.-' she suddenly laugh until very loud. she and her friends keep asking me to say bye bye to yingxue. :D they make me darn shy. :) okay, I'm tired, going to bed now. goodnight.

It's just pie in the sky.

2009-05-22T23:27:00.000-07:00

:0 yesterday had our friendly match at CCAB with Japanese and we won them, i did not perform well due to some personal problem and coach blame me for not playing well. ._. We may have win them a lot of points but they are not important to me. What i want is her, all this while I've never give up on her yet she give up on me. :( What makes me feel really despondent is she told me a lot of things i don't wish to hear. In the beginning, i know i have no chance already. Before i like her, got another like her, maybe I'm just the substitute to her. :0 i don' know what to text her and even if i text her, i think we got nothing to say. our distance between us are drifting apart. I don't wish to talk about this. Maybe she won't come to my blog again. I will still continue to do what i'm suppose to do and won't let her down. I got to stop her. My friends are waiting for me at CCKCC. BYEBYEEEEE.

I'm tired!

2009-05-20T08:36:00.000-07:00

Hello, :0 today is our first training after our exams, training was not really tired because we started late and many of them were late. :D our training ended at 10 plus. there is a building at BPP. 21 storey! we got to climb up there and come down by the lift, our palms will be holding flour, we got to make our hands wet and the flour will stuck at our hand, we can't let the flour be lesser and we must climb up there. got some of them need to re-do because their hand got no flour. after climbing the staircase, we need to do sit-up. not on the floor but somewhere else and our teammates will support us. we're doing three sets and minimum 15 I'm scare i will fall down. and hurt my back. after sit-up and push-up, we must use finger or fist to do. not allow to use palm, hah! my group manage to finish first. :P :} after the training, we realise that our captain's wallet is lost and he's face were like so sad, our coach lent him money and have his dinner. hope my captain is alright! :):):) after talking to our captain for awhile, we went to have our dinner and home sweet home! heh!

sorry for not message-ing you. you were outside celebrating with TZH they all. :O i wanted to text you, but i fell asleep and i got training just now. i was rushing and forgotten to text. hope you won't blame me. i don't know whether you'll be reading this or not, but i'm still writing it here, hope you understamd. D: (Y)

:O i need someone to cheer me up?

2009-05-18T10:49:00.000-07:00

Helloooooo! I've not been updating my blog due to laziness. :P too tired and lazy to post nowadays. now is 1.52AM. Don't know why, i closed my eyes for so long but i still haven't sleep. went to smoke, went to drink water, went to eat things. I've done everything but still can't go to bed. :O I don't feel like going to school tomorrow eh, very boring some more i still got music lesson. I know i pass my EBS & Eng. ha-ha :):):) I'm meeting my Probation Officer with my dad. I'm supposed to meet him on 12th of May but he's on MC that day and we change our reporting to LATER! yesterday gamble with Yongxin, Ansley and Pingkoon. i lost $40 to them and i went home. reach home, had my dinner and fall asleep on the Sofa. :) he-he. so incredible. i sleep for about 5hours and now i know the reason why i can't sleep already. :O got to go. try going to bed again. :}

Sorry Readers, not been updating my blog. :D

Replying Tags: >Caiying: Crayzy ah you. i waited for 18 months and you still want me to extend. :)

>ahguang: oh okay. :) i won't do foolish things again. hey, play ball next time ask me along ah. :D takecares..

Ending Probation!

2009-05-11T23:51:00.000-07:00

supposed to meet my probation officer now, but he's on mc so no choice. i got to meet him on 19 of may. 4.30pm. but he told me that i doesn't have to go home at 9pm from tomorrow onwards. :O Finally, i waited so long. the day has come. :D

:D :O :) :]

2009-05-09T21:08:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone, has not been updating for this few days cause i am very tired. I've finish all my paper already and no school for next week. THREE MORE DAYS TO FREEMAN! ha-ha. I'm so excited right now. yesterday someone tried to find songs for me to listen. but i only like one song, unbelievable. :D yesterday just had my match at Australian International School. we won them by 3o over points. our next game is against fast break, we lost to them once, so we got to win them. don't know where to go later. alright, I'll stop here. :) BYE BYE! HAHAH!

Woah.

2009-05-02T06:28:00.000-07:00

hello. today wake up at 1o plus like that. called Szekiat and meet him, went to novena to see my basketball shoe but no shoe that got a size fits me. so i went to jurong point to see. jurong got a lot of shoe. i saw three very nice, got one green&white, blue&white and black&white. ha-ha. i took black&white. :):) i bought one Nike shocks too. after buying went to meet Terence they all. accompany them for their 3on3 and i played for them. they lost one match if not they can get first already. dumb la Szekiat. he-he. after watching them played, went to take bus and chit-chat inside the bus. :O i got a lot of jokes to make them laugh man. they were laughing like mad. other people thought they are insane. :):):) and finally, home sweet home. :D

No more! the distance between us and longer and longer. i don't know what you thinking anymore. :(:(:(

2009-04-30T18:54:00.000-07:00

we got no fate. that's all i can say. i call you, you never pick up. you text me, i am sleeping. :O

play seriously suck today. O:

2009-04-29T07:39:00.000-07:00

hi, hello, 嗨, 你好. :D hmm, just ended my match not long ago. we lost the match and i played until very sucks. i should have made more assist and not just go by myself. sorry teammates, let you all disappointed. :O after our match we went to mac and cool down. after that we went back to cc to watch match until 9 plus i cabbed home with Zhenwei and Nicky. :):):) ha-ha. i want to improve my skills by not being so nervous when my opponent comes. going to train my shooting too. my shooting sucks. sigh! just reach home sweet home. tomorrow still got PE and i haven't run my 2.4km lehs. nevermind lah, i will still run. :):) gonna stop here. very tired already. goodnight! ha-ha.

Replying tags:
>Caiying: why must i buy for you? you took my tissue eh. :D
>Sangrui: You crazy uh? :D i everyday buy for you? you ask your boyfriend everyday buy for you lah. :)
>Jingyi: what's so special about my blog? need to find me? you can just ask from me and i will give. ha-ha!

tomorrow is our match.

2009-04-28T05:20:00.000-07:00

hello :D went to school as usual. nothing happen much but i sleep during maths lesson. he-he! sleep until the next lesson mother tongue. nothing happen this few days only some problem, hope all this will be over soon. :( sigh! tomorrow is our match already. we against Remix. :O don't know whether we will win or not but we will still try our best. :):):) just now finish school went to block 6 and slack and went to eat with zhenwei, jiajun and yongxin. after eating jiajun and yongxin wanted to buy chocolate and we went to fairprice. ha-ha. zhenwei thought of stealing and we told him NO. :D after buying chocolate, we went to Kahjie house to play mahjong and i win a little? after that we play poker cards. i win $28 total! is incredible. after that yongxin want go home and i accompany him wait for bus. now home sweet home. :O ._.
Replying Tags:
>caiying: you quiet lah! nobody ask you to KPO right. haha! if you know, keep it to yourself alright. -.-'
>wanlin: hello.
>xiner: yea. no worries lah! hmm, i lazy link. som other time alright? :D
>sangrui: hah! you want i everyday buy for you lah! :):) kidding.
>yongxin: no lah. i am relax already. i play very sucks on that day lah. don't know why leh. :(

we lost today's match.

2009-04-25T08:07:00.000-07:00

firstly, i want to apologize to my teammate because i didn't played well. did not do a good pass or shooting. i'm the main problem that causes the team to lose. seriously, if i'm given a chance to stop playing, i will stop. rather then being a bastard in the team. i have sososo much trouble but i got nobody to tell. :0 whenever i text or chat with her, i will not let her know about whether i am sad or not but i will let her feel that i am still happy like how i am. is useless if she got feeling for him and not me. D: i am willing to give up everything if she just tell me she love him. seriously. :O i am tired already. got to go. byebyeeeeee.!

D:D: tomorrow is the match!

2009-04-24T07:28:00.000-07:00

Hello! :):):) tomorrow is my match. my probation officer say i can extend my time restriction. ha-ha. darn happy lah! okay, today went to school for exam. 800-830. after our exam we went to cc and wait for jiajun to get the ball for us. after playing at cc, we went to keat hong for our training. after our training, all went home. now home sweet home! very tired. still waiting for her text. :O i don't know how to play tomorrow match. darn difficult leh! :( gonna stop here. :D byebyeeeee!

Thanks for your support! :D:D:D

replying tags: >jiahui: i don't eat muffins. ha-ha!
>yongxin: yea, goodluck for our match tomorrow.
>wanlin: yah, i will. you too. :D
>celeste.w: hmm, you say only. haha! okay. we will win! :D
>YINGXUE: yea! ha-ha! don;t forget to booked the hor! i will be going to there to have fun with you you. :):):)

i will give you more time. lalala~ after your exam then say lo. ._.

such a long day!

2009-04-23T05:42:00.000-07:00

Hi oh hi. :):) today went to school with a happy mood! went up to the hall for assembly and look at the time table, my mood totally change because
1.PE~800-900
2.El-P~900-1000
3.Element business skill~1000-1100
4.recess~1100-1130
5.Computer application~1130-1230
6.El~1230-1330
7.CL~1330-1430
after all this lesson, i still got a life skills programme. from 3-5. alamak. super tired today. D: yawns! tomorrow is the first paper of Mid-Year exam. first paper will be Chinese. from 800-830. half an hour only. -.-' Saturday will be having a basketball at CCK CC. i don't know will win a not but will try our best to win. :O our only hope to win. pioneer zone 12. sigh!!

hello! :D

2009-04-22T06:06:00.000-07:00

hi, quite long didn't post already. :D okay, talk about today. i am sick and did not go school today :O i went to downstairs to see a doctor and went to meet my friends. ha-ha. :):) after went to cc and watch match. this Saturday is our first match and is starting at 8.45. i`m so scare. howhow? OMG. we confirm lose because all of them are so big sized and fast. how to compete with them? sigh!. D: got to go. Byebye! post some other days. Holy MaMa.

Don't say no. :D I'm still waiting for you to approve.

very tired today!

2009-04-18T06:15:00.000-07:00

hello! today got prestige training. the whether so hot, all of us got no strength and i almost vomit and faint. i got fall out 2 times and the rest of the times i endure it. :D is so tiring! after the training i went to coffee shop to eat and i went back to panjang cc and see the prestige open training, their training was so slacked. not like us, training like a dog like that. after watching the training. now home sweet home! :):)

bring me go taiwan and hongkong too! haha! remember to booked the air ticket for me. :):):)

hello hello!

2009-04-17T07:18:00.001-07:00

HiHi, my laptop is finally back and i'm so happy. haha! actually nothing much to post too. just now went to watch movie and went back school to wait for jiajun ah-hem! :D post till here. very tired. byebye! ._.

laptop spoil :(

2009-04-14T19:38:00.000-07:00

now possting in school. haha. won't be posting for the next few days due to my laptop got problem. :D so, sorry! hehe! when my laptop is back than i'll post again. :):) got to go. byebye!

no more emo post, because someone said so. :D

2009-04-12T18:39:00.000-07:00

hellohello. haha! someone say my post is too emo. :D:D:D hmm, i'm inside the computer lab now. hehehe! the teacher is coming already, i switch my page to the work that teacher gives! and the praise to the whole class that i'm still doing my work. :D lame teacher. no brain, stupid, retarded, idiot and dumb teacher. haha! okay, i got to go already. hmm, this post is confirm not emo again! Readers!! (T)

:):):):):):):):):):)

2009-04-12T06:11:00.000-07:00

hellohellohello. :D today wake up at 9.30. don't know what to do and just sit at the sofa and do nothing. after sitting at the sofa so long, went to 484 for balling and played very long. we thought is going to rain soon but didn't. luckylucky. hmm, after balling went to sunshine for dinner. :):) hehe! and home sweet home. :D

i wish to give up already, i can't hold on anymore. afterall, he's still better then me. i got nothing to compare with him!

started to lose confidence already.

2009-04-11T06:08:00.000-07:00

Hellohah! :D today wake up in the morning, do nothing and text people. 3.25 leave house to panjang cc for prestige basketball training. i'm having a fever and i can't do physical things. hmm, after the training went to coffee shop to have my dinner. home sweet home, :D

i`m sick!

2009-04-10T04:32:00.001-07:00

hellohello :) wake up early in the morning, i realise that I'm having a fever, so unlucky. :( sze kiat call me and he wanted to play basketball at cc, i said okay. reach there, i got totally no energy to play. and decided to went lot one to see a doctor, saw my friend there and didn't went to see doctor. after chatting with my friend, we went to the temple and my friend were gambling and and i was sleeping. after a while, i went home to sleep. forgot to reply her message, maybe she having her dinner with her family. haha! i shall stop here, too tired to continue and no energy. :) BYEBYEEEEEE.!

Sports day?

2009-04-08T06:00:00.000-07:00

tomorrow will be our sports day in school, i`m playing basketball as the Osprey house! i will let Osprey house become the champion house again! :D haha! today school was boring, ALL THE LESSON! after school went home to change and quickly go school for training and till 6plus. looking forward tomorrow :):)

she's not going to school, maybe? i'm having sports day tomorrrow, how eh?! :(

Yesterday i Piggyback Yongxin, Shumin say to him, how old already still need me to Piggyback. HAHA!

sorry, bame it on me,

2009-04-07T01:00:00.001-07:00

YESTERDAY: school was boring, went to watch c boy's game and they won. :D after the boys match, went back to teckwhye to ball with those junior. :) after balling i went home, lie down on the sofa and fallen asleep. hehe! TODAY: went to school as usual, first period,
1.English
2.E.Maths
3.Music
4.Music
5. assembly
haha! school was so boring. hmm, just now went to coffeeshop to eat with Jiajun and Yongxin. :O i feel like message-ing her but i don't know what she's doing now and she at where. nevermind, maybe going for jogging with Sze Kiat later. :D that's all for today. Byebyeeee!

i`m sad to said that, whatever i do may cause you feel unhappy, so must forgive me!

I don't wish to do that either.

2009-04-05T06:09:00.000-07:00

today wake up at 10, went to my uncle house. going to cemetery with my relatives. reach there, the whether like going to rain, after finishing the first place, on the way to second place, started to rain, sit inside the car for 45mins and wait for the rain to stop. :):) haha! after the second place, went to third, finish already faster go home and get prepare and went to cc balling. :D hmm, after awhile, got so many people there. so we decided to go block8 and play basketball. finish balling, home sweet home. :]:]

there's a guy, asking me how much i love her, how much i like her, asking me she like me or love me, i told him she don't like or love me at all cause this is a fact. i told him i will let him have her but i really don't bear to do that, but whatever it is, i`m here to say sorry. :'( i wish you'll not blame me for being so selfish but please trust me, i'll still not give up no matter how long it takes. i've promise him that i'll not text you cause i feel that he can gives you happiness. so, cherish the people around you.

abashed towards her?

2009-04-04T09:02:00.000-07:00

:D today wake up at 10 plus, wanted to go jogging with friends, but some of them can't make it and we cancel off the whole thing. BORING! went to lot one with Weijie and friends to have my lunch, after eating, waited for Yongxin and we take bus back to cc to play basketball, we can only play until 4 cause got the taiji thing. we got no place to go so we went to block 8. we were discussing something and finally got an answer, we went to south view, wanted to play basketball there but got don't know what there, we walk to lamsoon and played for few match. after playing i went home. :)
tomorrow going to pray my ancestor early in the morning, i wonder if i can wake up. i`m going to cck cc tomorrow to play ball. maybe not posting tomorrow, so, byebyeee! haha! :):)

i need you, i love you. i`m willing to do anything just for you, my love for you will never cease. trust me? :D

Caring day at old folks home :D

2009-04-03T06:15:00.000-07:00

okay, went to school as usual and meet yongxin ar canteen. :D after bell ring and we went to the hall foe assembly. hehe! after the assembly i and my classmate went to the Pending old folks home. reach there, start with cleaning the windows and stuff. :):) after the cleaning we had to dance with the elderly and sing song with them. i was so shy i don't even dare to hold the elderly hand and dance or even talk to her. after singing, we went to some bigger place to play games with them, after playing we took the bus back to school and i went home to bath and headed to school again. the C boy's got a match today and they lost. is very disappointing. after their match i went back home with Sze Kiat and change. went to Sze Kiat house and waited for him. when he's ready, we took cab to Keat Hong. haha! inside the cab, Sze Kiat ask me to teach him (SHAKE SHAKE) :]:] Yongxin also ask me to teach him, hehe! there's still a long way for the both of you. train hard and you can do it. :D tomorrow going jogging with Sze Kiat, YongXin, Jiajun, Zhenwei and Nicky. that's all. BYEBYE. :D

PLEASE OH PLEASE, CALL ME YISHENG! :D THANKS.

almost die without cigarette:D

2009-04-02T06:46:00.002-07:00

today woke up at 6.30 and get prepared. meet yongxin at 7.10 like that and go school. after morning assembly went back to class to have my first lesson.
1.Em
2.Element Business Skills
3.Pe
4.Recess
5.English
6.Computers Application
today in class, during English lesson i was using my handphone he English teacher caught me using it and write it down inside the at the ORF= Offence Record Form. after school stay back detention for 3 hours and doing nothing, just at there chit chatting with my friend and joke with my friend. after detention i went home and sleep now. :D that's all! BYEEE..

unlucky week!

2009-04-01T05:40:00.000-07:00

today went to school as usual. get trick by NG YONG XIN this morning. i thought is real. don't know that he was trying to say APRIL FOOL. idiot, he got brain, BIRD BRAIN! heh. today's lesson 1.Music
2.Em-P
3.Element Business Skill
4.Em
5.Cme
recess time, on the way going back to class, saw a star leader and i shouted at her, i say "oie". she say"what". i say "oie". she say"what". then i say "oie ah oie". and she just gave me a slapped. D: today after school, Mr Zainal wants to see me, yongxin and jiajun after school for some reason. :(:( maybe extending my probation. idoit boy. the stupid sec1 guy. after talking to MR Zainal, we went to foyer for the osprey cheer leading. so lame! just at there shout shout and nothing else. :D after the cheer, went back home to get prepare for school training. when i reach school, run with the sec 1 and sec 2. afte running, actually want to do push-up, mr gilbert wants to talk to me. okay fine, talk talk talk, is all about the sec 1 boy again. WHATEVER! had enough already. Mr Zainal want do what just let him do lah. i don't care already. mow my probation left one month, if extend i CONFIRM @#$%^&*&^%$#@$ HIM! went back to court after talking with Mr Gilbert, is going to rain and training is cancel, went to cc with Nicky, Yongxin, Jiajun and Zhenwei. play basketball, while playing, i injured myself, is not hand or leg but my waist. darn unlucky lah for this week. -.-' going to end here! ohyah, by the way, stop calling me longan from now on, is awful and i don't like it. i want to be YiSheng. so, call me YiSheng. :D:D thanks! BYE!!!

saddening day.

2009-03-29T06:21:00.001-07:00

today wake up at 11 plus. get prepare and meet sze kiat at 145 to eat, but we went to mac eat at last. ;D after eating, went to CC sit and see people play basketball. waiting for the time to pass and want go lamsoon, but the sky is getting darker. so i called jiajun to ask whether want come CC. we tried to call yongxin but he didn't pick up. then he call back to jiajun phone and told us that he's sleeping at home. -.- after that play basketball at cc. play until 6plus, went to coffeeshop and eat with jiajun. finally HOME! that's all. haha! BYEBYE!

idiot you, make me feel so awkward! :):)

is that called admire?

2009-03-27T06:31:00.000-07:00

i don't know why got this feeling, see her, i will nervous. but, at the same time. i still can't let go of her. What Should I Do? hmm, okay. i finally know wha her name is called. now, i've forgotten already cause i just wake up. hehe! :] boring.
today 1st lesson, EBS. going to die. the time past darn slow and keep doing so much work. like going to die. :D 2nd is chinese. have fun leh, teacher keep disturbing me. she even say i`m a YELLOW COW. haha! because the cow doesn't like to do use brain. then teacher disturb me. idiot! than she said actually i`m hardworking too. whoohoo. :):) 3rd is english, abit boring but teacher still got joke to make the class laugh. after lesson, went for training, those sec 2 boys were so cute, some of them is making me crazy, teach them many times, but they still don't know. they don't know they still don't like to ask. after the training, stay at the canteen talk talk with friends. :D actually want to go home already, after that saw shumin and chat with her. after chatting, went to 143 to eat with yongxin and jiajun. we got no place to go after eating, so, we went to CC to take a look whether got people anot. reach cc, stay there and play basketball for awhile. went to my house the bus stop to accompany yongxin and jiajun wait for bus. home!! sleep while i`m watching television. woke up quite long already. :D that's all for today. Byebyeeee:):):)

what should i do? continue waiting or just let go. do some thinking tonight!

another day of waiting,

2009-03-26T05:38:00.000-07:00

today after my lesson, went to clementi sports hall to watch the C boy's play. they were playing quite well during the 1st and 2nd quater. however, their defense are slow and juying sec catch with lot of fast break. after their match, take the bus and back to school, tomorrow got training. gonna build up their defense. i`m darn tired. tired for shouting, studying. i`m hungry right now!! i got text herr today, but she didn't reply me O: don't know. still waiting for her text. nothing already. byebye! :D

third day for waiting.

2009-03-24T05:23:00.000-07:00

today went to school same same. tomorrow the c boy's having match, don't feel like going cause the sec 1 some of them are coming to basketball. :D hmm, today got training in school, train some of the players and joke with them. they're darn funny. :):) feel like quitting prestige and stop playing basketball. this feeling keep coming. i don't know how to tell issac. is really difficult for me to just tell him i wish to quit, he'll not let me go and ask me why. alright, that's for today, see whether i`m free tomorrow. if i`m free than i'll post. :D

can't stop thinking of her, i shouldn't give up. who knows if one day she say, i "is not the ending point yet".

disappointed..

2009-03-23T06:20:00.000-07:00

today went to school as usual, nothing happen. after school, went to the C boy's basketball division. they were being thrash by nan hua. OMG, i don`t believe it. maybe they've tried their best, i don`t know. i only know that they have did badly just now. after their match, went back to teckwhye to play basket with jiajun, nicky, zhenwei and yongxin. tomorrow will be having training for the C boy's. hope they really treat it seriously. went home after playing basketball. bath, and sleep 9.00 :D had my dinner already, so, i don`t know what to do now! :):) heh! now chatting on msn.

i didn't know she feel relieve after telling me all this, if she could tell me earlier and she will not have so much problem. now i`ve got nothing to say anymore if she say we can only be friends. what else can i do? :(:(:( sigh!

another day has past,

2009-03-22T04:56:00.000-07:00

went to play basketball at lamsoon today. play until 7 plus, went to with for bus with nicky and went home. actually wanted to post yongxin hair but he found out that i took his photo then he threaten me to delete. he says "Delete now or i'll tickle you" so i delete :D his hair is like merlion? he he. no offence. today's the second day i`m waiting for her. she told me that she had some personal stuffs. i wish to know, nervermind forget it. nothing to do now, i`m waiting for my dinner now! LEE JIA HUI COPY ME, I`M POSTING, SHE'S ALSO POSTING. COPY+CAT=COPYCAT! :D

i've never wonder that she will said that to me, i thought we're happy, in the end, i`m the one thinking too much.

it's the ending point,

2009-03-20T20:12:00.000-07:00

yesterday you told me that we should end it here, is that really what you want? i got nothing else to say if you have already decided what you want it to be. you told me me things would not what i wanted it to be, but have you ever thought that one day it will be true and that's the miracle. maybe you find me too annoying, i`ll wait. trust or or not, i will wait. like how i used to told you.

saw this rainbow while i was walking home, today things were not right, went to lot one with Yongxin cause he want to buy watch, i was late and made him wait quite long. he he. SO SORRY!
hmm, went to temple meet ansley they all, after we gamble, don't know what happen, lose all my money away and got no money to eat. went back home, bath already and suddenly fell asleep at my sofa. just wake up not long ago :D how i wish i could see this rainbow with her, how i wish if she's right beside me. maybe i`m thinking too much, is just my imagination. alright, shall stop here. got no mood anymore.

I love you. maybe you don't trust me at all. but, believe me that i`ll prove it to you. (**********)

waist pain!

2009-03-20T07:23:00.000-07:00

today wake up late. i got to rush and quickly went to bukit pangjang to meet Zhenwei, Nicky and Jiajun. after that waited for 960, reach Bugis, chit chat with they all and joke. :D we got 4 match to complete and we manage to win 2 and lose to match, we can't enter the second round. disappointing. after our match, gilbert come to meet us and we go have our lunch together. after having our lunch. we went to bugis street and walk walk and took MRT back to teckwhye to play basketball. after playing basketball, headed home with nicky and zhenwei. :] POOR YONGXIN, CAN'T USE COMPUTER! hmm, somethings i dont wish to talk about. that's it for today. :):) BYE!

labels: i wonder why she's so busy man, she don't even have the time to text me. nevermind, let nature takes it course. :(:(:(

;):):)

2009-03-19T05:35:00.000-07:00

yes?! ;D long time didn't post, firstly, too lazy. second, got no mood to do so. ha ha! :]
will be having a (three on three) match tomorrow, anyone coming down to support? :) hmmm, waiting for (lalala) quite a long time already. she have change lot, not used to be the one i know. ha ha. :) yesterday prestige having a friendly against china guys. they're smelly and their Chinese sucks. i don't seem to get what they mean. he he. we win them by just a few points. :) maybe will post as usual back. so, don't worry. NG YONG XIN, today disturb me in bus. Tomorrow Watch out!!! :] jiaqi helping me to do blog, thanks ya.